I have no reason to talk to you; and yet I want to so bad.
Maybe it's just the idea of having someone around that I miss. I don't know.
It's almost pointless to type this out.

Nothing has ever changed. I don't believe it would ever change.
Ever..

You have nice memories of me.. but you won't give me good memories of you.
and when all is wrong you're still the last person to even try and fix anything.

You left me..
I never left you..

You ditched me..
You lied to me..
You accused me..
You could almost say you were a step below cheating on me with what you did with other guys and who you spoke to while lying to me saying that you weren't.
You just didn't screw them.. as far as I would know..

I can't trust you to even know that answer.

You miss all of these things about me..
What do I miss about you..

Well I guess I could say I miss about you the same of what you miss of me.
What, that I would tell you stories for none in return. That I would sing to you for no sound in return.
That I would put my arms around you while you fell asleep ontop of me.
That I could kiss you all day but you could only kiss me but so much until you'd rather go to sleep and ignore me and not even touch me.

Maybe I miss the idea of having someone around.
I know everyone gets over things though.

I've never wanted relationships because they're not worth it. For anyone.
The world is a slut, romance has yet to exist aside from stories.
People get together, they break up.
I don't understand how someone can be with someone.. and stare at another person..
How someone can be with someone.. and tell them they love them.. and find attraction for another.
I don't understand how someone can be with another person.. and lie to them.. about anything.
There shouldn't be such thing as dating.
There should be purely awesome or there should not be anything..

I want purely awesome or I don't want anything at all.
and nothing is purely awesome.

Maybe i'm the only one who sees it that way.

If I had a girl..
she would be the perfect girl.

She wouldn't find every other guy important.. and treat me like anything I say or have feelings for matters.
She wouldn't fuck me over for some other guy in order to talk to him about whatever..
Have him get involved.. and then give a shit for what he has to say or do afterwards.

She wouldn't leave me because she was wrong.

She wouldn't be wrong.

...
I could type a lot.. but I may as well stop.
Before I feel like i'm trying for something again when I shouldn't.

The idea Matt is to just leave.
Leave leave leave and die happy.
Ocean.. freedom.
No drama.
No parents.
No family.
Awesomeness.
You want awesome.

and then she ims you..
I want awesomeness..
or I don't want anything.